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**okay this is a re-submission, i changed the original just a tad....., i made it brighter.....



Alix, the white photo shoot
Overview

The set
This was the first photoshot I had done and I decided to keep the cube in its purest form, all white, because it would be easier to do a photo shoot which shows someone who is trying to camouflage and disappear from the world that way.

The message…
For this photo shoot I wanted to portray a victim which is just so overwhelmed with what is happening to them that they are just so confused and scared, that they try to blend into their surroundings, camouflage, and go on in the world unnoticed, to escape the present and future, to try to disappear, that they cant take what is happening to them anymore, that they have reached their breaking point and there just going to give up.
Also to demonstrate being so isolated to the point that you are different to everyone else around you and you cant just feel like you can relate to the people or be yourself, like you’re a different species- thus the need to show ‘different’ in being painted a different colour.
White is a shade which is used for plain objects such as paper and as a clean starting point for work like typing, drawing, ect. White is also a colour which is pure and innocent, and that’s what I wanted my victim to be portrayed as, innocent, to a certain extent….
In the photos you can see a very small amount of black which is the eye make-up and the models naturally black hair, these things are apart of her, one has been applied and one is natural. These show some negativity and that there is a ‘bad’ part of her, and I feel that this is very open meaning and I feel it necessary to let viewers to make up there mind and decide for themselves about what they believe and chose between the following: Everyone has ability to be bad or good, these qualities are in everyone, you have the ability to do what you want and make your own choices… so we believe, but if we were to bring religion into this ‘realistic belief’ and the aspect of ‘fate’ that everything happened for reason, that God has a plan for us- we are not in control of our own life, is it him or us doing these wrong things? And if it is him, does he have the right to judge us whether we go to heaven or hell?
So the blackness of her natural hair symbolises fate and God that we aren’t in control with our own lives that we are just in this cinema watching our life awaiting the end to see what happens.
And the blackness of her applied eye make-up symbolises that we are in control of our own life and that she has the ability to chose to get out of this situation. We can’t control the natural occurring or can we.

karma, fate and the balance of good vs bad are things which Im very confused about, and I believe in God, but fate and karma, there are so many bad things in this world which happen to good people, and then with bad people, people who murder and rape others, are they being punished with jail terms which are getting more and more lenient or are they doing the punishing?

The image shows the suffering of a victim and is questioning the reasons for her suffering, and who is it really by- reality or fate???

I think the meaning of this photo shoot is a lot harder to come by, by just looking at the image, and that its very deep and that I am making a big move by criticising god, but so many people put so much faith into God, prey to him and live by ‘it was mean to be’, but I want to know, ‘is it?’

Also the white paint is cracking off her body; this also shows the healing process from being hurt or suffering, that time can heal, and that people have different ways of dealing with it, like talking about it, being alone to think or screaming at the top of your lungs.

The model…
I use my friend from outside of school for this photo shoot, Alix. I first asked her is if she was ok with her entire body being painted white, so she knew what waould going on, because I had been rejected by so many others who were really not into the idea of being covered in white paint, and it would be wrong to trick some one into it.
She was pretty good at posing, and found some discomfort when the paint was drying on her body. I am happy with the photos I have chosen.

The make-up, hair clothes and costume…
Pretty much the theme was to have Alix white all over. I bought a white sports bra to cover Alixs top half and none of us had any white pants or shorts so we improvised and Alix wore a white singlet top as a skirt to cover her bottom half over her underwear and white acrylic and face paint was used to cover everywhere else. I originally didn’t intend to have her hair black but I couldn’t find any white hairspray anywhere, or her to be wearing black eyeliner but her eyes looked too plain and I couldn’t put paint too close to her eyes- but these two aspects in the ended working out for the best.

Lighting
For lighting I used natural light and flash light. Klieg light was an idea to trial but I didn’t have access to it at the time of the photo shoot.
With using natural light that meant that I had to turn off the flash off on the digital camera which seemed to affect the quality of the images in that it made them blurry and distorted, I haven’t incorporated many of these photos in my folio due to this, but if I had, it was because I really liked the composition of the photo and that I will try to see if I can fix them with photoshop later down the track.
Flash light seemed to be the best because natural light couldn’t get all the way into the cube because of it’s depth and angle of lighting during the time of day of the photoshoot, but the flash seemed to be able to help this and get into the box to lighten it up as well as the model when I took a picture.




specifically about this composition....:

Potential solution 11- Alix compotation and arrangement

I decided to take this composition and arrangement further because I felt as though it had a lot of potential in this form. I liked how the images were in black and white and white was really bold and stood out a lot. I also like how in each of the 9 box is a different pose, this makes the composition interesting and engaging for the viewer. With all nine images I intend to enhance them on Adobe photoshop to get the best results for image as possible. I will then digitally arrange them in Photoshop and print it out on semi-matte paper 40x40cm.
The final image will be mounted on card.

The easiest way I could explain the meaning of this piece was write it as though character was saying/writing it, it felt more fluent and real that way;



“im sick of being, I feel sick and infected. With myself, my thoughts are the poison. The antidote is completely unknown. It has to exist everything has there opposites but I can’t find it. Its like I am the antidote, I can stop it but it’s a numbing chemical it only appears to go away its still always there and always will be, even if it is gone, it will be a memory, a rich one, which I will never forget, a learning one, I have a fantastic memory for the negative, its scared into me, under my skin. No one truly knows who anyone is, only one knows one but do they? I know no one truly knows me, if they do they hide it well and only continue knowing me because they are scared. Scared of what im capable of or scared of what im not.
Everyone is selfish, everyone, so self absorbed, not wanting to know anyone else problems, too lazy and absorbed in their own little world, feeling safe in there own sphere of existence until they hit a bump and then wanting a way out and telling everyone about it, wanting to make it there probleml, get them to fix it. Some accept and some continue the cycle of neglect, but do they realize what they really do? Even if they are the parent or the best friend?
Humans are animals, but yet real animals are the most humane creatures in this world. With animals all you have to do is treat them right, feed them, care for them love them and they will repay you with affection, you don’t have to win them over with jokes, sex appeal or advertisement of social hierarchy.
In a large social clique you just sit silent and watch. Some peoples words are heard and listened to because those people are respected, for some reason. Its amazing how when two completely different people can say exactly the same thing and one is considered funny and the other is just stupid. watching other people and observing there actions are a learning process, not many people do it because they are scared they will miss out on something with in the group, those people haven’t been scared, they haven’t felt what I have felt and haven’t taken the time to learn about other people, these preying animal, so they don’t have to try to build a defense or understanding of them to get ready and prpare for their attack.
The packs are strong because they have the reinforcement of conformity and numbers. Isolation is strong if your high in the social clique, but weak unless your not, then your fucked.

You cant, escape. You cant hide. You cant blend in. you are trapped. You cant escape. ”




random story.....:
I had a very unusual but amazing experience earlier this year. It is odd yet so rewarding and beautiful. As I walked down a concrete path I stopped and picked up an empty drink container in the middle of the path way. It was bold and stood out. It didn’t belong there. I put it were it belonged, it was alone and so disturbingly bold but it wasn’t its own fault for being there. I put it into the silver bin, it was a place where there were others like it, in a place where they all belonged. It was at peace and the concrete was clean and right, I was unaware someone was watching me. They walked up to me and thanked me for what I had done. I was startled and surprised . Some one had appreciated the smallest thing in the world. I felt amazing, that I had the power to do something that was literally impossible for others to do: something which is hard to do, yet it is so easy to drop something which doesn’t belong and to ignore it. Sometimes people will step on it or kick it away. Its only a piece of trash, it doesn’t matter. Does it?





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